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"yes, my king---i love, need and want you, as you are the warrior who is my equal".....cr https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_aVFVveJNs

"Fine we talk, this now and then in past. For I am trying, trying to let you into that rare spot reserved for erotic love. A true union of equals sharing a life together takes time to court in any circumstances, in more rare and unique lives there are challenges to overcome that God provides for a reason---to make us stronger in jumping the hurdles.. Yes I would be lying to you if I said I didn't have erotic love before--and I won't lie to you. True residual affects of a love burned me deep. There were signs and warnings given by God, as God gives us love but it is our choice and emotions/love can overtake all thoughts and rationalizations. This is love out of balance, discord, and chaos. Love gave me a blessing as it opened my eyes to human capacity of this gift from God and at times a curse, no? Yes--I was detached and aloof--focused on academics, sports and pursuits of interest--work. Yes, True I fell so hard from this love. Fell hard so that I could learn what love was and what bad love was and how it can cause harm and ruin lives. So the fall I see was a blessing from God so that by falling I had to get up. The fall opened up the erotic lover for me so that later on in God's great plan I would truly open up to a soulmate. This too will take time to understand my true love and soulmate. For I am observant now, and love requires more than just love--it requires an equal and match. True, guilt still languishes over how my love blinded me and in blindness my defense of person caused harm. Ultimately I just harmed myself on levels that can cut us deep. The conclusion of this connection, fitting enough was The year you won your biggest title and me the same. It was the year I also fell the hardest. God awoken me up some and took a piece of me and God gave me a craft. For this year was initial year of my studies of a craft, God blessed this craft to ultimately use to help others. So God keeps things in balances, it is just seeing these blessings over the other aspects of living in this world outside of Eden. That year, the year you won your biggest title but not your truly big title--that is still to come. That year some years ago I fell hard during a long hot summer, me buying into manipulations of the person played me like a moth to a light. For their own benefit. The person got freedom thanks to me defending and they "looked at me and gotten what they wanted and left me". Abandoned after already being emotionally and mentally exhausted from defending this person. My heart cracked, I prayed God would end the pain for I was very blind. God didnt, God has plans and a greater purpose if we can just get through, get through at times hell. Luckily God had my dad drive me down and out of that "hell" and to area which was home for me to build a craft. I didn't leave my apartment for 2 weeks, the little apartment that had been my home during rigorous studies and evolving into my own person. Yet for those two weeks a will to live has its limits. Classes started, a purpose came from God--although I didnt know this yet as God was always a part of my soul but not in proximity God would become. I focused on craft: it saved me. Routine took hold, the person had to pay via serving in time--some not enough. In time I realized no "God didn't punish me, but God was trying to teach me about love, free will and choices." God didn't want that person as my partner+spouse, my free will let me go in a direction God didn't want but that I picked. God wants you to be my partner for we are soulmates. Thus my hand and mouth have been saved for you. Yet I need to go slow, trust you on erotic level first before anything, a union and many dates. God also blessed me with a calling, but I was wanting to hide behind this calling away in part to protect my heart from erotic love. I accept this path, for "you are the one" if ever "the one existed". But you go slow, we date and see. Now you see, sense and understand a large part of something that if hadn't happened my heart would never had been open to erotic love and you. I would have been closed off, and not capable of seeing how truly wonderful you, your love and the love will share is in this world, a rare gift! So that dark soul was necessary to open my heart to love my true soul mate, you.

Blessings!

Love, comes in many forms and allows us to connect deeply. Love God gives us free will, thus with free we can decide even against the signs of God. Thus where evil can come in and play on our love. Important to be aware so that love doesn't make us a pawn. Love is there to build us up, encourage, support, honor, trust, be truthful and loyal...these are qualities of a true soulmate love... mine out is there, waiting for proper introduction... The scars of love gone wrong, don't have to continue or have taint on us---believe me I know it tainted my recent years...yet I healed and grew and focused on myself and professional goals. To be selfish in my own pursuits was a blessing. A greater blessing now would be to have that introduction and meet the one my one my soulmate my lover my partner and my match...

God knows time passes so fast. It has been 3 plus years since making and having a unique and rare connection. God doesn't give us these luxuries much. Recently someone passed some information on to me, which if true---many blessings to next avenue of pursuit she takes and is fully compensated for years of grueling hard work. If information not so accurate, that is ok. Either way a blessing to learn something. Today was a good day, felt very relaxed and at ease. Granted it started rocky with Starbucks but soon it became right as rain...

"well why do I serve but God" "because its ordained right, you serve me" replied "no we team, we serve eachother" counter "i see, ok i agree on condition my name" counter "ok confirm we serve God" "and serve eachother"

The king walked into the offices past the library within their main estate home. They enjoyed the intimicy of this office over at times the main estate offices located on exterior buildings used to over see the King's enterprises.

Whereas this office was more intimate, more personal areas were focused on by the king and consort. Only the king and consort had keys to this office.
The king walked into the room and an intense, artic cold energy consumed him+++it stopped him dead in his tracks.

In early years the king thought the heating and fire system defunct, now the king readily picked up these energies from the consort.
For this wise king knew "if my consort is upset, complainong even yelling it is not much to worry about. A chocolate bar can distract and cheer up.

"Yet when consort was non-expressive but focused, it was like being faced with a large immovable ice burg that no one but God could penetrate. Yet the king was finding ways to reach into the fire and passions that would bring this thaw to at least more moveable.
"Large heir jewel quality estate pieces tended to connect, and brought consort happiness. The king used these tactics.
"For even if it wasn't directed at me, me better when consort not so cold. I don't need my balls froze off" thought king.

"BRrrrrrrrrr, my love you look wonderful and time to go get some hitting in, please. You observe and provide feedback on me with this new hitting partner. ME the king wants to take your advise and perfect this aggressive, knife biting slice. Please come now my love".
The consort hating no detested distractions when focused and to anyone else would have sent out of office.
The consort looked up, saw the puppyish eyes, blue-green eyes of the king, with such love and devotion and the consort smiled.

The consort smiled, let go and breathed.
"Yes my love, I wouldn't miss this for anything. Then espresso and light food, I want to discuss extending the line of oils for international production$ the profits to church on the child education center."

"Yes" king said+++knowing easiest and truest path. For God ordained it and God granted the king the consort.
"And I promised God, God give me consort, me never say no to God or consort, and I don't just say but I do what say, no." king thought deeply.

Music such an art form, with the ability to pierce my soul and connect deeply.

Perhaps connect deeply to me in places that have been locked deep, deep away in the heart, mind, soul---perhaps so deeply only God could penetrate.
For as I age, in growing wisdom and faith in God, I see and accept God's way is the best and only way for my soul.

It is fair to say in all my strength, accomplishments and focus---hiding away behind work and behind those things is a device that has served me well.
To disconnect from erotic love and put it deeply away has been a tactic, I've mastered. For none have been able to get past the deep, strong wall put up around my erotic love.

Slowly there has a been a thaw....have i gone out yet on a date with my soulmate-partner---the one, no not yet...but I am taking steps to be available when the time comes.
For


without any doubt I know that God willing the one comes to gain my hand in a union-marriage will have a strong, formidable, at times dour but highly educated partner with a great amount of love to put my partner first and guide, raise our children to God loving individuals who I would sacrifice my life.

We see what God does, no? For God is our ultimate master.

"GOD REWARDS THE FEARLESS"